i missed the most

I love browsing old pictures, friends’ birthdays, fiestas, graduations, JS proms, reunions and even break-up reunions. I always end up smiling and laughing while looking at those. It talks about a lot of stories and memories of history I made with old friends. Thank God for pictures, memories are still vivid and I can still look back and reminisce with those treasured memories. This hobby of taking back to the past, never fails to make me miss my old friends so so so bad. Finding time to be with them is such an effort.  Sometimes seeing them twice or thrice a year has been a luxury. Good thing, we treasure every millisecond we’re together. Took pictures like it’s the first time we took our pictures together. Every time we see each other time flies so fast, before we know it we’re headed back to our own routines. It is always “bitin” to our endless stories and “chikas”.

I wish I can travel back to the old days. The old times I don’t worry much about tomorrow. Matapos lang ang isang exam or quiz, may it be all kinds of paper, thesis or activity, that means celebration already. I miss the old times, when I laugh & cry, feel happy & sad, face and withstand problems, start and grow, with old friends. I miss not being judge for anything I do or say. It feels good to remember how I used to be with them. I can laugh like there’s no tomorrow. I can rant and whine forever like kid. I can dance & sing with them forever. Take pictures every move we make. I’m missing the honesty & trust. They can tell me how stupid I am or I am changing so badly, and still accept and stick with me. Friends who won’t take for granted and won’t take my misjudgements, mistakes and weaknesses against me. And they can tell me I can get through the toughest time.

For 2 decades, life was never fair, but who needs a fair life when I have friends with me. I owe so much from them. Love, trust, honesty & respect.  These are just some of the values I gained from them and will truly cherish forever. I feel blessed that these people, never judge me for who I am or who I become. Despite of all the weaknesses and vulnerabilities that I have, they never took it against me. They embraced everything in me, bits by bits, just like a normal family does.

Having friends like mine doesn’t just happen to anyone. Yeah, that’s how I proud friend I am. And I couldn’t ask for more. ♡